Christian?

I don't dislike Christians. Some of my good friends are Christians. My brother is a Christian. I don't dislike Catholics or Mormons. I was raised Catholic, was baptized, made my First Holy Communion and I was Confirmed. I still believe in many of the things that the Catholic Church teaches including love thy neighbor and honor thy mother and father and Jesus is the Son of God etc...but there are a lot of things that I just cannot believe. I know that some of the bible stories are exactly that... "stories". I also know that the idea of Immaculate Conception is a great way to teach abstinence but I'm pretty sure that it did not happen that way.
I have heard that the "Devil" tries to trick true believers and the faithful by testing their faith with such questions about Mary and Joseph, the Resurrection, Earth's creation, homosexuality and the turning water to wine etc. This really gets my goat because I don't know why asking questions would make someone the "Devil". Asking questions and thinking logically is what God intended us to do. God, or whoever the higher power is, knew what he was doing when he gave us free thought and when he created our intelligent minds.
Going to church and listening to a preacher, minister or priest and allowing them to tell you what you should and should not think, feel and believe seems to me to be more devilish than myself who just occasionally questions my own thoughts, feelings and beliefs. Now, that does not mean that I don't have faith. I do. Absolutely I have faith. I totally believe that someone created us in the likeness of themselves, I also believe in Heaven and a Higher Power. I know that someone watches me and protects me and I am a very big believer in how you treat people determines whether or not you will be happy in the "afterlife". Karma is a major part of my belief system and I am proud to say that even my children are aware of what Karma is and how it works. Truth and Faith are words that I put a positive feeling toward. Truth, Joy and Love. These are my religion, these are my beliefs.
I am hurt by the relentless attacks from the Christians who call themselves Christian but behave like animals. They use Jesus and God as weapons. My favorite quote is: "Jesus hates the Sin, not the Sinner". I think that's the quote, anyway it is the worst thing I have heard Jesus say and I am amazed that he hates anything and sinning is really getting overused here. I mean my love for my beautiful girlfriend (who is a consensual adult in her love for me) is not a sin in God's eyes. The God that I believe in and know, he thinks I am great. The God that made me is funny and caring and crazy about me and my lifestyle. I'm sure he's not totally pleased with some of the choices I have made in my lifetime but he definitely does not think I am wrong for being gay. He knows me because he created me and because I am who I am and I don't care what the Pope (for whom I do have respect for) says or the Christian extremists, who think that I am a deviant, say. My God has treated me well and when I behave immorally or am careless with my own body and mind, he is forgiving and loving and not hateful or angry. My God doesn't "Hate Fags" or "Hate the Sin" or hate anything!! This bullshit that the hardcore Christian Right is using is the sin, they will know when (and if...) Jesus comes back and "Saves" them that their behavior is wrong and ridiculous and not Christian like. They should repent and go to confession and say a whole bunch of Hail Mary's because they way they are behaving and teaching their children about hate is unbelievable and leaves me both appalled and saddened.